being happy

I would have to say that being legitimately happy is probably one of the hardest things to do these days.
With people putting you down every other day, with work being hard to find, or having a job that you're just completely miserable at, or relationships going down the drain because either someone is being a dick/bitch or they were just not loyal to one another.
So now, I am trying very hard to find myself, find ways to actually help myself be happy. No more faking. I want to actually be happy.
Not okay.
Not content.
HAPPY.

Real happy.

So I've started to live for myself. Not others. Myself.
I'm going to be a little selfish for once.

I want to get over my small case of agoraphobia. And I think in order to do that, I have to be comfortable with who I am. I mean, I am comfortable, but not really pleased.
If that makes sense.

So I'm going to do this.
I'm going to concentrate on things that make ME happy.

ME ME ME ME ME