i'm his angel. he's my knight

I'm trying to figure out if this is it..
am I done my search?
I actually hope so

I am trying not to rush things, and I think I'm doing a good job.
I want to concentrate on school more then anything else so I think keeping things the way they are is a good idea.
Life isn't short right now. I still have so many years to go. So why rush?
Why risk ruining something so absolutely perfect?

I just can't believe this is happening. And I hope it's real.
The one person that has never gotten off of my mind, since the day we met, since the first night we spent together. I pretty much have him.

I'm his angel. He's my knight.

Unbelievable :)

about time...

After a weekend of best friends(ALL of my best friends), a good show, and an amazing boy who makes sure I'm always smiling. I have become content with my life. Even though I still have some stress left over from some other sources, I can finally look passed it.

I can't wait to see what the next couple years are going to bring.

love..

It's surprising actually. How much I really miss you.

Gone all summer, only get to see you a couple days every few weeks. At least this time I get to pick you up, and I get to hang out with you, get coffee with you, listen to music and drive around with you.
Girl, you don't even know how excited I am to see you at 7pm this friday.

Lee, never leave me again. Jeez!


On another note... my sleeping patterns are completely fucked again. I hope they change once september rolls around. I don't know how I am nocturnal, it's not like I'm out doing something. I'm at home, laying in my bed, having the worst time trying to get to sleep. Stress can do that to you though.

I'm going to try and sleep again.

So excited to see Lee :D

Learning..

So I've somewhat, kind of, learned how to deal with a couple of my situations right now.

Basically I'm just concentrating on working, hanging out and TRYING to be happy this summer. Then school, thank god for school. I will be able to take all of my focus off of the stress in my life and put it all on school.
How sad is it that I'm actually hoping I get loads of homework so I have something else to think about?

Another thing I'm learning is that a lot of people are not who I think they are. They're personalities completely suck. They are immature, disrespectful, and completely fucking ignorant. You finally think you have all of those people out of your life and somehow more pop back in.
I wish there were more solid people in this area. Makes me want to just get up and get out.

That's another thing. I'm actually thinking of moving away for a bit after college. I found out that I can continue my program in Alberta/Australia/St Catharines. Which I'm kind of stoked about.
I think Australia would be a little too far just for school, it would be an amazing experience but I doubt I would be able to deal with being away for so long with the stress of school on my mind and not having someone close to me to help me out.
Same goes for Alberta.
So if anything, I might be moving to St.Catharines in two years. That would be exciting, and at least a little bit of a change. And if I ever get home sick I could just drive home. I like that idea.

Can't believe how excited I am for school. Weirddddd.