moving on

As much as I love seeing you happy, I hate seeing you move on.
Even though there was nothing really to move on from, it was something to me.

I wish we knew how to be friends because you are definitely someone I want in my life. Someone to keep in my life. But unfortunately since we skipped that friendship stage and went right into something more, it will always be so hard.
I have a feeling it's going to go all down hill from here with us. With our past being so intense and the attraction still there, a friendship will be so difficult and soon one of us will give up with out even knowing it.

I'm really glad you are finally happy with your life, and I'm glad you found someone who makes you that happy.
Something inside me will always hurt every time I see you smiling with someone else.

I love you. I really do. <3 :)

can you blame me?

Can you blame me for being so insecure?
Almost every person I have put my trust into in the past three years has fucked me over.
I have been lied to. I have been used.

No, I'm not asking for your pity, or your sympathy, but I am allowed to feel insecure. I am allowed to be self conscious right now.
So don't talk shit about me because I complain. Everyone fucking complains.
People are allowed to.

No one really does know me except for maybe two people. And they have been in my life longer than everyone else.
So please just stop judging me.